Thursday, February 25, 2010


A man I knew died today. He was an acquaintance from the ragged gang of punkrockers that were found in the Delmar Loop back in the early eighties.

I want to write a homage to him but I have an urgent matter at hand. I thought I might make note of a few things that I have learned from the dead that comfort me when someone I love passes.

On the other side everything is complete. We say that "life" is "eternal" but there is no death on the other side, and no time. You have already lived, and you are about to live, and you have never lived. So your own spirit comes to meet you, and the spirits of all the people you love and care about also come to meet you.

A part of you is still here as a kind of "ghost". (Until the funeral, as far as I can tell, and sometimes longer, and in the case of really hard core empiricists, only long enough to experience "brain death".) But there is another part of you-- a more enduring part--that is already in "heaven" or the afterlife, or whatever you think of it as.

And you do seem to have as much choice in what you believe and experience in your after-life as you do here. However, I will comment that a family member that was a very strict religious person in life, encouraged me to use my gift as a Medium with her family. And then also a client's deceased friend that was an atheist dropped in with a message that she had been wrong in life to not believe in an afterlife. (Although she did not regret, nor was she in any punished for not believing this while she was in this life.)

If you have lost a loved one I can tell you it is like in the tv shows and movies. They are standing right by you, trying to comfort you. For them, it is just a blink of an eye until they will see you again.

Just remember them and speak out loud. Light candles, and place flowers, and pictures about. Tell stories about the person. The dead can come back to this dimension through our memories of them. (That is why happy memories are best-- so they don't have to journey through the bad ones to get to you.)

And all is forgiven. The number one thing the dead say to the living is "I love you." Love is what makes us live forever.

In Los Angeles spirits of the dead can get the white cabbage moth to do their bidding year round, although I also know a guy who comes with a rose beetle. And indoors in winter fruit flies are often the carriers of the dead.

Sometimes it is a little breeze, or a branch or twig snapping. Every now and again a bird, or small animal.

I'm sorry I don't have time to write more! Karl, you are celebrated, and you are missed!!!!

Sunday, February 21, 2010


Because I have consolidated several blogs here, I thought I might add a little label here, of which blog a post would have appeared on. Hopefully this makes it easier for my long-time readers.

This post would have appeared on my Conjurings blog.

I've just read The Law Of Attraction by Esther and Jerry Hicks. It is a must-read for any entity wishing to master this dimension. Because the book is channelled by a collective of Angels and Spirits called "Abraham", it is very clear. These two people did not write a book, they simply took dictation.

Basically, you can live in any reality that you want. You can be a ballerina or a cowboy or a lazy layabout. It does not matter. We are here to experience anything we put into our minds and ponder with enough emotion-- either fear or joy or anger or happiness.


That includes the stuff we don't want. The greater part of the book is an instruction manual on how to keep focusing on what you want by remaining centred in a feeling of joy and harmony.

It's all in my head... really...

One thing that this book makes clear that others like it (that I have read) do not, is that there is no "purpose" that you have to stick with once you are in this life. And you can free yourself of all past life karma by moving your awareness away from karma and past lives. Simply stop thinking about them and go back to thinking about this life, and this moment.

"Stay in the moment; stay in me," I always say.

However, if you find an interest in seeking out your past lives you may. Of course! It is part of your reality! If it stops bringing you joy, stop doing it.

For me, this idea of "no contract or commitment" was very liberating. Because of my psychic sensibilities, I am always somewhat aware of the movements of my greater Self in the astral dimension. While I have known for some time that my thoughts control much of my experience, I viewed karma as an almost non-renegotiable contract. Something I had to think around. Constantly. Karma was always in my awareness.

And then, too, for so long I did not realise I was feeling the feelings of other people. And even understanding this now I am often greatly swayed by people that are emoting strongly-- about anything-- in my presence. (I am perhaps not so much kind as simply possessed?)

This can go to the point of being against myself in an argument. In other words, being able to see and feel the other persons' perspective to the point it is hard for me to defend myself. Even if my "side" was less harmful, or "right". Or, worse, this awareness would send me into a rage of helplessness at how different my desires were from what I was feeling from the other person.

Thanks to the book, I now see that by not immediately releasing whatever I perceived coming from the other person that contradicted my own joyful feelings, I was maintaining that which I did not want.

Seek and ye shall find. So always seek joy, the Abraham Collective suggests. In it lies your true happiness and authenticity. If your karma or thoughts of your past make you feel bad, think of something else or find a new way to think about them.

Like everything else in this world, the only power, the sole, true power, is in the moment. This one. Right now. Not one moment ahead and not one moment before. If you do not bring karma or the past or unhappiness into this moment it will not exist in your reality. (Unless you choose it in order to experience feelings of satisfaction from sacrifice or loyalty or something.)

Without karma, and through the power of contemplation, I can live in any reality I can conjure. All I need is the compass of joyful feelings and thoughts centered on what I want. If the two-- joyful feeling and desire-- are in contradiction then karma can intervene, or things may not work out as I wish. (Or perhaps I do not feel I deserve what I want, or do not think I can get it, etc.  The lack of a joyful feeling tells me that my head is not "right" with my heart.)

This new understanding has completely changed my life. Outwardly I am the same. But my internal processes have all shut down temporarily, in order that they might be re-worked. I have felt this drift, caught this current, many times before. (To a lesser degree!) I anticipate that once I have fully integrated with this new reality change will happen very swiftly.

Sometimes the really big changes in a person's life aren't the ones that are visible to the outside.

With much love from my heart to yours,
Lady Rae

Saturday, February 20, 2010


Welcome! Welcome!! Welcome!!!

Many people have commented to me that my view of the world is very different. People are often curious about how I experience this life. Rae Of Light is a "guided tour of my reality."

Welcome to my world.

I believe that there are 6 billion different realities on this planet-- as many as there are people. I think there are as many "Gods" as there are people, too. None of them are right-- or wrong-- for anyone but that individual person.

All of the religions are like languages to God/dess, the Divine, the Highest. Even the religions of heroin and hate. The Divine is in everything and can be found in everything. Even things that destroy and hurt us. It is our frail mortality that forces the Gods into such narrow confines, speaking outdated languages. The Divine is immortal and diverse. The Divine is fluent in all tongues.

(I don't blame the atheist. As creator of his world, he decides to distribute Divinity evenly to everything, and worship nothing. Like the person who, in ignorance of the issues, decides not to vote lest he do harm to his own good. Or worship nothing but what is empirical, so that nothing that cannot be considered a shared reality can be left out.)
I feel the feelings of people around me, and I always hear a kind of whispering with names and words that come up later, and sometimes I will even hear a conversation taking place somewhere far away, or a conversation someone is having with themselves.

I have several spirits that surround me that I speak with frequently throughout the day, as well as Angels and nature entities and spirits. I also come in contact with lost spirits looking for mediums, as well as what some people would call "demons." (Strong thought-forms filled with anger, despair, etc. Or spirits that are angry or greedy, or simply not human-friendly, like spirit leeches or somesuch.)

I believe that like attracts like; every thought and feeling and belief is a magnet.

I see all of us inside of a type of sphere--literally and figuratively. And then we are all inside of our own "reality bubble" as well. How we each appear in other people's bubbles may not be how we appear to ourselves in our own bubbles. And we have no control over that.

I  see that we are all encompassed by an aura and an auric shield like a sphere around our bodies, as if the physical body was the filament in a round light bulb.

I see colour and shadows and marks and sigils and spirits and energy and angels around inside of your bubble. Different for each person, and often different in different parts of a person's life.

Sometimes I see little thought strings like webs that stretch out to the things and people we think about. And the fabric of thought and feeling and magick and earth and heaven that weave as we each go through our lives here on this plane, so that our lives go on "forever" on the astral plane.

We are surrounded by each other's bubbles. We do create and feed and discard and generally share among our individual realities. But we do not have an objective "shared" reality. (Other than gravity, the necessity for sleep and eating, that sort of thing. Although I do believe that even many of those things are negotiable.)

Television and the internet might make you think that the whole world knew of Michael Jackson's passing, but there are people who don't even know who he was. (Probably not many, but still. You get my point.)  There is a diversity of life experiences on this planet.

And nature plays a part in the deception as well. We all inhabit human bodies. We tend to echo each other and form similar patterns based on natural activities like eating, sleeping, and sex. We share things like gravity, this planet, emotional states, and so forth.

Many people come to believe that because we share this natural world, all of our realities must be the same. Further, because there are so many different experiences possible in this world, and therefore too many things to fit into any one reality, many believe that we in fact must all share one very limited reality. One that other people experience the "wrong" way. (I.e., differently than how they think it should be experienced.)

I believe there is a limitless way to experience this universe and this human dimension. I am learning not to judge. I am learning to let go of the things I don't like, in order to experience more of what I do like.

Further, I believe that many of the really hurtful things that happen here are because we think we are all fighting for what is "right". We do not think there is enough for everyone. We think that we have to get everyone else to conform to and share our reality.

I have no desire to disturb the empirical or rigidly religious person. (Or any person!) I have experienced those realities myself and find them to be valid. I have held a smorgasbord of beliefs in my 44 years. More than once I have found myself opposing something that I had once fought as hard to uphold!

These contrasting changes through the years have enriched my view of this life. I am able to understand and interact with many different types of people on a higher level than their "beliefs". Perhaps that is why it is so easy for me to live in this Universe of Multiverses.

I am able to share in the reality of other people and enjoy it as they enjoy it, and understand it as they understand it. For some reason, a great many people I meet find this very uplifting. It makes them feel validated, and they like having someone to share what they love.

I like to experience new things, or old things in new ways. And I enjoy sending out positive energy, being loving, and sharing information that I have learned that has helped me to lead a more joyous and fulfilling life.

Certainly there are some people and places that I prefer more than others. I try to stay focused on what I want and the good things I have. However, I find myself in circumstances that are not to my liking at times.

G.K. Chesterton had a good way of looking at life. He said "An inconvenience is only an adventure wrongly considered and an adventure is only an inconvenience rightly considered." I always gain something from every experience.

And even among long-time friends and comfortable, familiar circumstances I try to remain in a constant state of courteous, observant, non-judgement; always staying open to enjoyable possibilities and new opportunities. I do not care for stagnation. I like vitality and growth. I try to keep everything fresh.

I think of myself as a sort of spiritual anthropologist and constant tourist. A priestess of the six billion Dieties that peek out from the eyes of my sisters and brothers upon this planet.   A translator, transcriber, archeologist, and linguist. A True Believer. A believer in You.


Currently I have four blogs and I would like to consolidate them into one place. Each one serves a function. Conjurings for the "business" of being a psychic, medium, and witch; Toodler is my personal blog, and therefore hard to pigeonhole. I have a blog about a neighbourhood I like, and a fourth about a kind of art project I do. (Well, that last one has been inactive and doesn't really count.)

Still, three blogs plus all the social networking sites! I need to simplify and consolidate in all of my affairs right now. I need clarity.

I have known for some months now that a huge breakthrough and change in my life was coming. This new blog is a new "face" to wear out in the cyber-world. Ironically, after setting the blog up, I found myself unable to access it because I not only forgot my password, I had answered my own security question incorrectly! The correct answer did not work! Doi!

Granted, we are in the middle of a major Mars aspect astrologically that is creating some Mercury inter-solar type of problems that I have dubbed "Mars mix-ups". Like accidents, but the consequences aren't as severe. It's more like stumbles and stubbed toes. As with my inability to access this blog for a number of days.

However, as dawn broke with this new understanding I'd been anticipating, I was able to remember the "incorrect-correct" answer to my security question and log in. Finally!

It seems my new face would not appear until I had grown into it. One does not become a Jedi Knight through ceremony, but rather through mastery.

The Force is with me right now, regardless of how turbulent the ride.

With love from my heart to yours,
Lady Rae