Sunday, January 31, 2016


IT IS FABULOUS!  Truly something for everyone.  "Limited time" Mardi Gras photo spread.

Go to the post and then click on the links to the Google Docs for Front cover, Contents (26 pages). and Back cover (same as last month).

To whet your appetite, here are the contents! (The tab formatting was lost when I cut and pasted.  The numbers are page numbers.)  Like I said, something for everyone!!!!

Rain “Bowie” .........................................2

9th Planet ................................................2

Trolls ......................................................3

Arke ........................................................4

Burns Night ...........................................6 

Frederick Douglass' Burns Night ........6

Michael Jackson & Robert Burns .......6

Ian Anderson .........................................6

Pagan Saint Bridget ..............................7

Saint Valentine the Heretic ..................7

Imbolc ....................................................8

Year of The Monkey .............................9

Familiars ...............................................10

New Moon Magick ...............................10

Photo and Image credits .......................10

Mardi Gras ............................................11

David Bowie ...........................................19

Happy Birthday Bob Marley ...............22

Calendar ................................................23

In Memoriam Alan Rickman ...............24

Hayao Miyazaki ...................................25

Endorsements ........................................26


Friday, January 15, 2016


Today is Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.'s birthday.  A spirit so bright he still shines today, and someone that truly understood that we cannot live in a world of inequality, classes, oppression and wars.  I hope this year we can really share in his legacy and finish the journey he started.  #BlackLivesMatter

There are many ways to celebrate King's life and take action for social change all weekend and Monday:

My birthday is tomorrow. If you would like to celebrate my birthday, please consider doing one or all of the following:

1) Make a wish or cast a spell for me, for my prosperity, luck, health... mostly for my prosperity.

2) Tell a joke or watch or listen to something that makes you laugh really hard, and fill the world with laughter.

3) Share a Pink Flyer from the Pink Flyer Project, or share the link to the FB page (I can't find the password or email for the blog, lol, so I do everything through the FB page now.) 

4) Do these things between 3:53 PM CST (1553) and 4 PM (1600) on Saturday, January 16th.

If you want to "buy me a drink" for $3 on my paypal for my birthday ( I will use it for either my gym membership yearly fees, printing out Pink Flyers to post and distribute, Supernatural St. Louis printed editions, or political flyers on registering to vote for Occupy Public Transportation in St. Louis. You can choose if you put a note on the paypal memo.

Thank you!

Wednesday, January 13, 2016


I see meme's that a heavy metal is going to be named after Lemmy of Motorhead.  Someone posted a meme saying that Bowie should have an exotic reef fish named after him because of his colourful personas over the years.

On Sunday a giant rainbow appeared over New York City.  A "rain-Bowie" a woman on facebook called it.  (This link shows all the photos of the rainBowie.)  The link describes how "Starman" was partly inspired by "Over the Rainbow".

I don't normally associate Bowie with a lot of Christian symbolism, but looking at the "Lazarus" video I was struck that his last album's first single was named for a resurrection, the album was released on a Friday, Bowie's birthday, and he died on Sunday.

Bowie's resurrection was to return to the womb of all creativity.  "Look up, I'm in Heaven."  And here was the corpus of Iris to show the path to the next realm.  Bowie is painting on a larger canvas now, for all to see.  We only have to look to the sky, to the astral, to Heaven.  Now there truly is a Starman waiting in the sky.

EDIT: 15 January 2016: A great article about Bowie's occult symbolism... A must read for Magickal Folk, CM's, Kabbalists, and Bowie Fans...

I believe in celebrating one's birthday- even if just singing to yourself a "Happy Birthday" song- because the door you come in to this life is the same door you exit out of life.  And it seemed appropriate to me because I do see Bowie as a God.  He was definitely a World Walker.  And a Shaman.

I might form a church called "RainBowie" or something.

EDIT/PS: I see Bowie faces in the cloud shapes.  I guess I will be like one of those Elivs fans that is always seeing faces in pancakes and stuff.  Maybe when an artist means that much to someone you see them everywhere after they are gone.

Tuesday, January 12, 2016


"Planet earth is blue/ and there's nothing I can do..." 

Even before Bowie died- and I can barely talk about that without tears forming so I am not going to talk about it- I had been planning a post about "how to care for your deceased loved ones."

Contrary to popular belief, my understanding is that we don't come here for "life".  Life is eternal and everlasting on the other side.  We come here to experience life with a death.  With an ending.  On the other side happiness and sorrow, joy and fear, everything, in fact, is all complete and whole, parts of the same thing.

It is here that we experience these things as separated. Even ourselves, our spirits, are like puzzle pieces. The larger part of us never enters this body.  When we die, our own spirit comes to meet us at the doorway, at the gate.  And it is that larger part of our spirit that generally decides when we are going to die- sometimes even in the case of suicide or murder.

When we have nothing left to learn from this life, when it is time for our spirit to move on, the larger part of us- usually against our incarnate spirit's desire- will recall us "home."  Back to the place where we are complete with ourselves, our spirit.

I think I wrote about the massive influx of spirits that visited this Samhain, the yearly event when the doorway between the worlds opens.  A lot of spirits said that they were going to be "crossing over" permanently to reincarnate into the New Age.  And that many others would be hanging around all year until next Samhain, and crossing over then.

"Crossing over" and "Heaven" are two terms I need to explain as I understand them.  First, the after-life you get after you die is part of this life.  Like your sleep dreams.  Like your body, your physical self.  Each of us is unique.  No matter how many incarnations we have on this planet, throughout the ages, each is separate and unique.

In each incarnation we are in a different time, different bodies, changing gender and race and nationality.  In each incarnation we will have different beliefs. So we will experience different types of after-life. Some believe that we choose our parents and our circumstances and gender, even "bad" things like disabilities or handicaps.  We want as many different types of experiences as we can get.

So we have a new spirit for each incarnation.  And we experience different parts of the after-life, or different experiences in the after-life, for each incarnation. The "heaven" that a Christian spirit experiences after a lifetime in this age is vastly different from the "heaven" of the middle ages, etc.

So the "crossing over" in one sense means crossing over, out of this life and also out of "haunting" this life as a ghost.  Some stay here in an incorporeal state because they are lost.  Perhaps died during sleep and keep trying to wake from a dream.  Or keep repeating bits of the life they were living, like the movie Groundhog Day, expect that nothing ever gets resolved.  It really is just like a dream.

Some stick around to interact, or try to interact with the living from the perspective of the dead.  Again, this is all a continuation of the incarnation the deceased had most recently experienced.  Some might stay for decades, even centuries, in earthly time.

The refusal to let go and move on eventually will render the spirit devoid of everything but whatever is tying it to its last incarnation, and you end up with these poltergeist type spirits.  Basically irrational, repetitive, troublesome, and sometimes downright evil.

For instance, the famous "Exorcist" case was likely such a spirit and not a "demon".  A spirit that was feeding off of the untapped and unused psychic abilities of the boy (the real Exorcist was a boy, not a girl, like in the movie) or someone in his family. And probably a spirit that had worked very hard for many years to manipulate this dimension without a body.

In a case like the Exorcism. the belief of the priests is set against the spirit.  And in this case, the priests won.  They successfully banished the spirit to a type of afterlife jail the Catholic Church has set up- either a hell dimension or purgatory.

Either way, banishing rarely helps the lost spirit "cross over."  The real crossing over happens when the spirit completely relinquishes the incarnation in both body and spirit.  In other words, a good Christian believer will die, go to a heaven of their God and stay there for "eternity".

Eternity is NOT a series of days with out end.  It is not linear time extended indefinitely and forever.  It is NO TIME AT ALL.  It is a state of eternal awareness and oneness with all things.  Things that have happened, will happen, might happen, are happening, and all the possibilities in between those things.

So in terms of linear time, the person might go to heaven for one second after they die.  Or hundreds of years.  When that spirit has sufficiently expanded to encompass the experience of that after life, THEN they will cross over.

Or they might come back to visit on their birthday or other significant day- or depending on their beliefs, might visit from "heaven" as an angel, or during a Samhain free for all, or in a time when their loved ones need them very desperately, etc.

But once a spirit really crosses over, they go back into the "pot."  My understanding is- and people get mad at me for saying this, sometimes, so realise that I am explaining my understanding, not promoting this or saying this absolute- that what eventually happens is that a hologram of sorts remains in the astral part of this earthly dimension.  Like the images in the Harry Potter photographs.

But the spirit and the soul, go back into the "pot".  The pot is all human consciousness, spirits, experiences, etc.  You, me, Hitler, Ghandi, David Bowie, Hildegard of Bingen, Suetonius, Carl Sagan, Mohammed, Jesus, Buddha, Donald Trump and Bernie Sanders.

You get the idea. Really big spirits- Jesus, Marilyn Monroe, Cleopatra, Michael Jackson- they create a bigger splash when they go back into the pot, which is why I think so many people have "past life" memories of being Cleopatra, etc.

So "you" do reincarnate, but each time a soul "crosses over" it's like pouring coffee back into the pot and then pouring again.  The pour is never exactly the same, both in the changes for the next earthly life, but changes that occur in the pot.

For one thing, if in the after life your spirit did not re-experience the incarnation from the perspective of everyone else that you interacted with, the pot will fix that.  I believe this is where the Christian concept of "God" comes from.  God is all things, and God is good.  But on this earthly plane being "all things" and being "good" are contradictory.

But not in the "pot".  Not once you cross over. **  In the TV series Buffy, the Vampire Slayer, Buffy dies at one point and her friends resurrect her, thinking she is trapped in a hell dimension.  She had actually been in 'heaven", in the pot.  She explains "I felt complete and whole and I knew that all of my loved ones were taken care of."  She was with "god", with "all things", where "all things" were "good", were "god".  Far removed from this dimension, even the parts of it that were the after-life.

So, about those lost spirits, and about caring for the spirits of your dead.  Most people don't seem to have strong beliefs.  They might profess them while they are alive, but I get far too many hard core zealots coming to me after they die. You will experience what you actually believe, not what you profess.  And a lot of people don't know what to believe.

So whatever they said they believed in life, they were actually waiting to see what was "real" or what death is "really like".  They end up not in hell instead of heaven, but somewhere between.  Neither here nor there, and often end up hanging around for a long time as spirits, trying to find the next place to go.

Suicides and murder victims often get "stuck" in something that looks like tar.  Astral tar.  Made up of whatever horror they were experiencing when they killed themselves or were killed.  And people that were murdered often get "glued" to the spirit that hurt them, because by necessity, the murderer has to experience the event from their victims point of view, and often all of other people that were affected- loved ones, bystanders, etc.

For any spirit, the best thing to do is to light a candle, put out some flowers, photographs of the deceased, favourite food and drink.  This creates a space for the spirit to inhabit.  Say their names out loud, another way to create space for them to inhabit (by moving the air molecules around).

All humans, plants, animals, clouds, and also everything that is on other dimensions- angels, spirits, dreams, consciousness, etc- we all inhabit the same physical matter, albeit in different arrangements.  We are really just more "dense matter" than our spirits without bodies.  Nothing ever really "dies" it just transforms.  The dinosaurs are still here.  All of their molecules have simply transformed into something else. And they, in turn, were made up of matter that had been amoebas, and stars, and hydrogen, etc.

So create a space for the consciousness of your deceased loved one to inhabit.  Even if you are not a Medium you can still talk to them.  You can still tell them how much you love them, and how that love is everlasting and will never die.  Tell them any issues you had and try to resolve them in your own mind.

Love is the pathway to all things good, in all the realms and dimensions.  And especially for a spirit that is lost or confused, Love will show them the way to their next experience.  In death, as in life, Love is the most important thing.  Feeling love.  Finding love in your heart.  Remaining open and receptive to love.

Even if the deceased was a master at astral travel and magick while s/he was alive, being without a body altogether takes adjustment, and we must continue to being loving and supportive even as we mourn their passing.  Let them know they will be remembered, but don't cling.  Let them know they can come back to visit, but encourage them to make peace with their Higher Spirit's decision to remove them from this life.

Encourage them to release the negative aspects of their life and death, and embrace love for their own spirit fully.  Let them know they are not forgotten, that this is not the end of them, but just another part of their journey.  If they don't know about Samhain, tell them about it so that they can find it if it wasn't part of their incarnation's belief system.  (Or if you are from a culture that has another time where the dead visit, let them know that you will remember on that day, and be open to a visit from them.)

If they are stuck and you have the ability, you can help them cross over at Samhain.  There are always emissaries that come to assist with gathering the lost and helping them to move on.  (You can set up a portal, or use a portal like the Gateway Arch, to usher them out of this incarnation's after-life dimension.)

If the spirit has chosen to hang around that is another matter.  You will know because after the grieving process is mostly over on your part (not that we ever stop grieving) you will only feel a good feeling when you think about them.  You will know they are in a better place.  Even if that place is right beside you, but without a body.

Love, in all matters, is always appropriate.  But especially when caring for your deceased loved ones. It is not death we must fear, but a life without enough Love.

"Tell my wife I love her very much/ she knows..."

 Love to you, and to all your loved ones, here and on the other side,
Lady Rae

**Revelations and the Final Judgement are, I believe, when the last human spirit has crossed over, the "pot" or "God" will reclaim all the lost souls, those still trapped in some part of the afterlife.

Wednesday, January 6, 2016


Today is Epiphany.  It's Wednesday and Mercury is retrograde.  I still had an Epiphany.

It's been three years since I met my friend Epiphany on this day.  The book I am writing about my friend is still not done... Even without that marker in my life, everything about the first week of January is a combination of regret over the past and superhuman belief in the future.

The year changes for me at Samhain.  But the calendar year change is the most magickal day of the non-magickal "real" world.  People, myself included, really believe that somehow the change of digits in the date is going to give them the power to start anew.

Because we want to believe. Have to believe.

Most smokers that quit on the 1st of January resume in March, same with dieting and exercise plans.  But, three months out of 12 isn't so bad.  It's a start.  I am a half a century in mortal years, and if I hadn't had a decades of 3 month starts at the beginning of every calendar year to work on myself I wouldn't be where I am now... never mind that I still fall short of my own expectations.

Epiphany has always been one of my favourite parts of the Christmas cycle.  It kicks off the Mardi Gras season, for one thing.  But I always loved the story of The Magi.  And the idea that Christ brought such light to the world that we all would receive "Epiphanies" of understanding and clarity.

Today mine was that at 50, my Bohemian lifestyle and absorption in writing projects needed more tempering with a solid day to day schedule.  Just because I can stay up all night writing doesn't mean that I should.

I am hoping on the mortal magic to get me through til March, to help me overcome my own lack of discipline, and hopefully by March my new habits will be in place and I won't abandon them.  I don't make resolutions, but this year I decided I do need to make some adjustments. I need to parent myself.

Caveats... I did the watermelon man spell and see I forgot to write about it.  I did it at Samhain but didn't release it until the Solstice. (Link about the spell HERE and HERE.)

That was a hell of a spell to work out.  I finally decided to concentrate on Darren Wilson supporters, and in St. Louis.  I didn't force it on anyone, but anyone who accepts the dream will get to see the other side, in particular, what that experience would be like as Michael Brown, Jr. Or rather, if they were in that position, and in that situation as a black man.

I'd hoped to release at the Arch but couldn't, because you cannot get to the Arch at all during the construction.  If you read the (still draft) first issue of Supernatural St. Louis you know why I chose the Arch.  I was initially concerned about having to release it elsewhere, but it seems to go okay.

I knew there would be some kickback.  I didn't expect it to be so soon.  It came with the Oregon wackos, "Y'allQueda."  Do you know that my theories about that Bundy Ranch group is doing is shared by other right wing groups?  That was weird.  And uncomfortable.  (One of the militia groups even said that the Oregon group was a "False Flag" operation! Even further than I had gone! I was just musing on what the CIA has done in other countries!)

And the gun thing.  I never really understood people's insistence that you have to have a gun to fight the government.  Most of the people that say this are white, but not all.  My belief was always that the government has so many weapons that a few little guns wouldn't do anything.

But as I mentioned in my last post, these people have guns and they are being treated like they kings! It's either white privilege to THE MAX or it is that yeah, you have to have a gun (or a whole lotta cash to change things in the courts) to get anywhere with the US government.

Pink Ball Caveats... That was too much.  I posted everything in the comments of the event post. (The link in the sidebar.  The first two comments from me are what I got just doing the meditation on the Solstice.  The third and fourth comments are from the actual messages.)

Too many people were just thinking about it, but not doing it, and it was so random.  So no more public things like this because there isn't enough real world feedback.  Also, everyone sent me animals, and that got kind of confusing.  I was trying to hear the messages with the location information, and that was enough for me.  I "cheat" a lot- asking spirits and stuff for help translating, and using symbolic skills to translate images.

So the idea was I would be getting the actual telepathic THOUGHT with just the LOCATION.  And all sealed up and tamper proof in the pink balls.  I still feel kind of worn out from all astral animals.

I did send every single respondent an animal of one colour as a return message this afternoon.  I sent everyone an animal, inside of the pink balls, via the same green owl that delivered your message to me- regardless of how badly I got the message garbled.

So- email or put in comments if I got your information correct, and also let me know what animal and colour you got back.  With individuals I would like to start practicing sending and receiving at pre-arranged times.  We don't have to use the green owls once we have "real world" contact and an appointment.

I hope everyone got an Epiphany today, delivered on a rainbow with a pot of gold at the end.  I hope everyone got to see a little more of their own light, and the way to make the world a brighter and better place for all of us.

Love and Blessings! And Epiphanies!

PS- if you'd told me two weeks ago that the Bundy's were going to take over a wildlife refuge centre I would have believed it.  I would not have expected this though.  Truth is surely stranger than fiction! And you just never know who is watching, do you? Forget the NSA! We have BIRDWATCHERS doing surveillance!

A must read!

Here's this, too:

Sunday, January 3, 2016


I joined this facebook group without looking at it closely enough.  It was about 11 September 2001.  About two years ago I heard about Tower 7.  I always knew that the events of that day served the Bush regime well (and by "Bush regime" I really mean Senior and Rummy and Cheney, and people that most of us don't even know about).  But a government conspiracy?  It was too much.

But after I heard about Tower 7 and started looking into groups like Architects and Engineers for 9/11 Truth, a new idea began to emerge.  It was DoD contractors and the Bush regime.  And probably a lot of other groups in government and the defense industry, and not just in this country. (Learning about Serco was also a contributing factor.  They are known in St. Louis for sabotaging the Affordable Care Act- but a global company that has it's fingers in everything, and strong ties to the Bush regime.)

Some of the sites I have visited about 9/11 theories have really un-academic research methods (not Architects and Engineers, but a lot of the conspiracy theory sites, etc).  And even though I use the term "Illuminati" pretty freely, I don't mean the same thing these people do.

However, I've always been happy that there are conspiracy theorists out there, in addition to regular folk that question the official story our government tells us.  It's better that way. Freedom and justice cannot thrive among the obedient and docile, the unquestioning.

But I also want to get as many facts as I can, and as many viewpoints. I always seek out the opposition, or at least their version of the story. However, I did think the facebook group I joined was more people with my slant on the events of that day than people that were satisfied with the official story.

In fact, it was a group devoted to "debunking" the "truthers."  Turns out I am a "truther".  A label I don't like because it instantly brings to mind the Obama birth certificate people. But, you know, you can't always be what you want in someone else's story.  Everybody is the good guy in some stories, the bad guy in others, and everything in between.

I found out I was the bad guy pretty quick after I posted in the group.  I was getting slammed by two people I would normally call "trolls" except, midway through it, I realised that I was the troll!

One of the group admins did try to keep things at a calm discussion level, but as I was fending off attacks, I scrolled down the page again and realised that I had not looked closely enough.  I deleted my comment and I was gonna lurk but the two trolls just wouldn't stop.  Private messages insulting me and public posts gloating they had "scared me off".  There was nothing to gain by continuing, and now that I have the links to the "truther" "debunker" websites I don't need the group.  (I can just go read what the group is reading.)

It's ironic to find myself a troll, even inadvertently. I've sworn off trolls and trolling- every now and then I do respond in the comments section of the Riverfront Times, or other media sites, But I reel myself back in pretty quickly.  In the last year I've gotten a good look at the trolls, because of Ferguson, and over a year later, and without any contact on my part, they still drive my blog stats up on a weekly basis.  (Thanks Trolls!)

One of them still follows me on facebook, directs other trolls to both of my blogs.  I can't imagine that mindset as permanent. I can't imagine reading ever single thing someone I don't agree with and don't like, writes. I can't imagine wasting my own time like that, when it would be better put to use contacting government officials, signing petitions, etc.  What on earth does a troll stalker think they are going to accomplish? It's pointless.

But then again, I'm not one of the people watching their world collapse.  There are a lot of people in the world suffering, really suffering.  Hungry, homeless, lost, ill.  All of them could have everything they need, but the division of wealth keeps the abundance of the world from those that need it the most.  In fact, the Old Age kept wealth out of the hands of the people that produce it.  So there are people in the world fighting real battles.

But here in 'Murica, you have these (mostly) white guys just freaking out about how they are losing their privilege and control.  And all they can do is sit around on the internet, attacking people they don't know, and stalking them for years- just waiting to find the opportunity to"make them pay" for not upholding the myth of "white might is right."

When I talk about the muggle/micro/Piscean Age world collapsing, I am sometimes a little gleeful.  But the armed thugs that took over the Oregon wildlife centre today are a good reminder that it is actually not at all something to feel superior about. Because this what the trolls do when they get off the internet.  They go out with their guns in their hands.

This stupid micro/Piscean Age world has sucked for most of us waiting for the New Age, but anarchy and revolution aren't going to be pretty either.  Especially since it won't be us New Age hippie Macro Love Freaks launching it.  We're lending a hand to systems that are already collapsing, and trying to put the new New Age structures in place.

These conservative muggle people are literally fighting to the death to drag the world backwards, or to take out as many people as they can.  And it is going to get even uglier, I expect. It was really easy for a lot of people that wanted to keep their head in the sand to ignore what happened at Bundy ranch last year.  You could count on sixteen hours of Ferguson looting reruns to be on television to overwhelm the 10 minute story on armed white men pointing their guns at federal agents.

The Constitutional violations of the St Louis county and city police, and the Bundy ranch stand off were actually two of the most significant things to have happened during that time.  For every citizen of the U.S., not just the people involved.  But true to form, all we heard about was the looters.

And open carry is allowed in all courthouses and federal buildings?  In a country where random shootings occur at about 3 per week currently?  No one ever gets mad enough at a judge or cop or lawyer or a politician to want to shoot them. Smart move, voters.

If this were another country and the CIA was trying to install a coup, open carry everywhere would be a smart move.  (I don't think the CIA is launching a coup, but it's hard not see the possibilities in plot lines.) If I were a government official, or had an interest in maintaining the status quo, I'd be "up in arms" about open-carry.  It's basically an invitation to insurrection.

 It's ironic that the country is getting a dose of the real terrorists.  The white patriots. It's more ironic than Bureau of Land Management and Black Lives Matter having the same initials.  (There are people on twitter that actually thought the BLM with the crossed out circle in the white patriot terrorists photographs was anti-Black Lives Matter.  And it wasn't Black Lives Matter activists and supporters. It was the people too busy looking at the looting footage to pay attention to Cliven Bundy and his ilk.) The crazy white right wing white guys are busy fighting each other.

I am going to find it very interesting to see if the 2nd Amendment people are right.  That you have to have a gun to make the government stand down.  Maybe I am wrong about guns.  Maybe we should all go get one, just to keep the "man" off our backs.  (At least, until the next "man" comes along.)

Because let's be clear: whether Bundy ranch and federal land, or a Federal wildlife rescue centre, these guys are not out protesting the government in the streets- getting arrested and tear-gassed and having their Constitutional rights violated.

No, they are being "negotiated with" and sent snacks.

So maybe the gun people are right.  Maybe we need a gun to make revolution, not protest and love and justice and non-violence and Bernie Sanders and signing petitions.  Or maybe we just need to find some white guys with guns.  Because the cops bombed the shit of out Move.  But on the other hand, they also shot up Waco.

So what is it about these Bundy people that makes them so special? Is it just their white skin? Just their guns?

I hope these Bundy people are right wing wack jobs.  But it looks like more than just that.  They represent something bigger or a lot more people than is being reported in the press.  And in any other instance, this would be an act of treason and the start of an insurgency.  There is a reason they have been handled with kid gloves since this started.

If it is because they are white, which it very well could be, then wow.  I expect a lot of consciousness awakening at having the truth so exposed.  But I expected that last year, too,

Uranus goes direct tomorrow and Mercury is retrograde.  We are still in some Mars cycle that brings revolutions.  (Read to get the actual astrology.)  This seems like the beginning of something, even with the Mercury retrograde cycle in effect.

I don't know.  I am just musing.  But this seems far more serious than I see it being treated, and I don't like the vibe.

We shall see. Peace out, Peeps!