Saturday, December 11, 2021

NEREUS AND THE OLD ONES

One thing about Saint Louis, there are always Entities about.  A lot of them were here long before the Native Americans, and some even before humans existed at all.  There were a few moving about last night. It felt bigger than storm riders.

But Pontos, the great sea, was father of truthful Nereus who tells no lies, eldest of his sons. They call him the Old Gentleman because he is trustworthy, and gentle, and never forgetful of what is right, but the thoughts of his mind are mild and righteous.[



No matter what that was, the Amazon workers should not have been working during a storm like that. Blaming the managers is ridiculous, although some is on their shoulders.  It is time for the culture of work to change, and for employees to demand safe working conditions, decent pay, etc.

No one should be dead because someone's package might be a little late. Jeff Bezos is not a genius. If he were a genius he would not have so much money.  His workers would be well paid, safe, and prospering.  And ditto the Kentucky candle company. 

https://www.yahoo.com/gma/minneapolis-braces-1st-major-storm-145100668.html

And we as a city, state, country, world, really need to take having community disaster plans ready. I've been writing the Mayor of St Louis, Tishaura Jones, all of the draft letters I have, and one the other day was on preparing for disasters, and shortages, and climate change.  But in a future several years away. 

Last night was an important reminder on things can change, and why we need to have plans in place. 

(Also this, The fire breathing dragon: Devastating solar storm spotted in nearby star system could be a warning sign for life on Earth (msn.com)

And if you are magickal, even moreso.


Saturday, December 4, 2021

I WAITED ALMOST THREE YEARS, BUT NOT ENOUGH HAS CHANGED, NOW I SPEAK

Dear Mayor Jones:

Saint Louis Public Library has the potential to transform Saint Louis City, but proper focus is needed. What patrons want the most are: available meeting and conference rooms, office services, including fax machines, notaries, on-site instruction for computer programs, assistance with resumes and business development, early opening times, especially at Central, and jobs at the library- there are many people that want to work at SLPL. *

Much of the library’s business is opaque, and I think it is likely that the much-touted number of 93,000 library cards is inaccurate.  However, even if it is twice that, that is still only two thirds of the city’s population, and many cardholders are from the counties.

Library cards should be automatic for every city resident, and services should be focused on residents. County residents and tourists do not need the free $5 monthly print credit. And all City residents, even those that owe for lost or damaged materials, should have computer privileges 

All full-time city jobs should belong to city residents, including the library. ** SLPL is funded solely on property taxes, in perpetuity and written into the City Charter. And the library receives payment on assessed values (meaning they get one half cent on the dollar of the total assessed value, $5 billion in 2019, even though the city collects less than a third of that).

The minimum wage for all library jobs should be $15 an hour, and the two most important and vital jobs at the library – the clerks and the janitors- need their pay scales increased. ***

All full-time city jobs should require retirement at age 65 and pay enough so that retirement is possible at that time.  Older people have a lot to contribute, and this is not ageism, but a recognition that retirement is necessary so that government institutions and agencies remain invigorated and allow for “fresh blood.” Part-time, advisory, and volunteer opportunities can be made available.

And there needs to be stronger rules in place, about family members (by blood or marriage) working together. This creates factions, and unfair scheduling accommodations for commuting, among other things.

Especially among the highly paid managerial and executive positions, there are too many “lifers” that have become entrenched.  Regular job audits should be conducted by every employee. Every single job at the library should have a “book of knowledge” or guidebook that explains exactly what that job does. No one should be “indispensable”, and no tasks should be left undone because no one else is trained to do the job.

Moreover, the Library does not need such highly paid executives. In a city where the median income is $65,000 for white people, and $33,000 for black people, to have three top executives, all earning over $125,000 (and the Director makes $185,000) is outrageous. And there are another 9 positions that are salaried over $80,000, which quite frankly, should be the very top salary level.

These highly paid executives are out of touch with the patrons, the public, and overly focused on producing marketing materials that do not address the real needs of library patrons and residents. The Foundation raises about $1.5 million, but at least $250k of that goes to salaries for the Foundation staff. (The salaries, I believe, come from the tax money. Again, why is this opaque?)

Managers can rotate the Director positions, and the outreach to communities should be done by the staff at the branches. And human resources, especially, needs to be restructured. The city of St Louis does not need a library Human resources executive that makes $99,000 a year with a staff of three people.

I also encourage you to replace every member of the Board and set term limits. They have served too long and become too comfortable with the executives and the major donors. Meetings are often cancelled, rarely posted publicly and the public is often discouraged from attending. The meetings serve little purpose other than the highly paid executives to quote circulation and gate count statistics. The library needs fresh eyes. 

Branches need to be assessed, too. Several are redundant and costly. Charing Cross is in an area overserved. (University City library, Washington University, and SLPL’s Cabbane- one of the remaining Carnegie branches, and a building that requires frequent maintenance) are all within two miles of each other. Charing Cross only has one computer terminal and needs to either close for lunch or have an employee travel from another branch.

Central Express detracts from Central itself and requires coverage from another branch for lunches and staff.

Both Marketplace and Machacek need to be audited. It is likely that one is redundant, and Marketplace often needs coverage from another branch, like Charing Cross and Central Express.

Finally, I have written to you before about the need to recognize the service that SLPL, and all libraries, provides to homeless populations. Libraries provide the only public toilets and keep human waste off the streets. Libraries provide shelter, computer services, and a place for outreach workers to concentrate efforts. In addition to the NGO for transient populations that I have suggested before, the library needs at least one social worker on staff, particularly at Central.

I have made all these suggestions, and more, to the library itself, both as a (former) employee and a patron. I was fired, unsurprisingly. And as an employee, I was told in no uncertain terms by the manager that fired me that I would be banned from attending any Board meetings. I am not seeking revenge or a library job, but the continued irresponsible fiscal management is intolerable. I have waited almost three years to address these issues publicly, in hopes that the executives and managers would make real changes. They have not.

I am happy to assist with implementing any of these suggestions and can also present you with a full restructuring plan if you would like. But either way, I hope you will look to improving the services that SLPL provides to the city. It has great potential, and many good employees and managers.

Thank you for your time,

Rachael Cailliach


* African-American men, in particular, seem to be under-represented, but in my observation, apply in great numbers, and apply repeatedly. I’d like to see job application statistics on all city jobs- i.e., demographics of who applied, versus who is interviewed.

**I am not suggesting firing all non-residents en masse, but this rule should be put in effect immediately. And if every employee is required to audit their job, non-performers can be removed, and places made for city residents.  And this can be combined with creating more jobs and job training at the library, especially part-time for students and underemployed residents.

*** One of the biggest fiascos I have witnessed was in 2018 when library executives decided to raise pay scales and hired a big consulting firm. The actual employees were not consulted. The consulting firm was horribly inefficient. At one point they assigned every job that had “Tech” in the title to market averages for IT salaries. People that worked as “techs”- a title given to employees that are advanced and useful but lack the required education level, usually a degree in Library sciences, and also the “techs” that performed actual repairs on damaged materials- were then notified that they would be receiving these salaries! It created a lot of crushed expectations, bad feelings, and reinforced the opinions that the executives were simply wasting taxpayer money and pretending they oversaw a large corporation, not a public library. The library had underpaid employees for many years, so it was a start, but it was very badly managed, and the wages assigned are still not fair or correct.

 


Monday, November 8, 2021

LAST CHANCE TO BE FIRST

 If you want the advance draft of my story Samhain Ritual for $3, it will remain that price until tomorrow at sunset.  Below is my facebook post about my process.  

I hope you are having a wonderful Samhain this year! That amazing sunset last night was definitely the spirits! OMGoddess it was incredible here- truly the magick hour!!! Blessings peeps

I originally wrote Samhain Ritual because I had been trying to write about an incident that occurred during Samhain 2019, and some things I learned from the dead about what it is like to be at one of my rituals from the other side. And to reveal Mysteries that are ready to go out into the world. The pdf was to be $16 or $17.  I was planning to advertise with a facebook ad from Lady Rae page.

Then this character Jesse showed up, and then some spirits offering their lives as setting and plot device, and then the story just told itself to me, the way all of my stories come. Jesse was conceived in 1992, right after I had a nervous breakdown and I was really dealing with my past (and the truth about how I felt about it) and my rejection of atheism and empiricism. I could tell myself every minute that there was no such thing as spirits or psychic or etc, but it wasn't organic.

From that 1992 story evolved my alter ego (Charlene Sainte-Claire), and this alternate universe and STL (River City). Jesse is just a minor character in that first story, and I know almost nothing about him, except he is a Frankenstein of men from that defining 3 year period in my life, which is too young for me to legally write about, for real.  Jesse is the worst of them that were just short of being truly evil.

The original book would have been 30 pages, maybe.  Just dense, esoteric stuff that I can write without much effort. One of the big motivators was to find other Mediums, psychics, etc that wanted to share info or at least have a convo about these things. I only know a few folks (you know who you are).

Writing a story (and especially one that potentially enough people wanted to read that I could sell and subsist on) is an easy fantasy to engage. In reality, I need to find an agent and submit this to a publisher, and get it all cleaned up and develop all the plot points into chapters that are Netflix episode-ready.  (This is actually really saleable as a story about the tragic slut girls and their relationships, and also the "is this just a crazy person hallucinating or is this real?" If anyone knows an agent or publisher or producer that might give me a chance?)

Writing isn't like painting or composing music, it is a really solitary mental process, and it requires a solitary, mental response, it requires reading.  A painting can be viewed with a group of people, music can be heard by a group of people, but even audio books require a kind of singular, subjective and sustained attention from the mind, not just the eyes or the emotions.

It's difficult not to "prematurely epublicate" lol or become pushy, or undervalue the work out of neediness to have it consumed.

This story is partly a Samhain offering, and it was my intent to share some of these mysteries. And I love readers! I love feedback! so I'm going to leave it at $3 until tomorrow at sunset just in case.

cailliach.gumroad.com/l/ZOhoMH

Last chance, to be the first!!! xxoo


BTW ye of little faith! I must not represent myself very well. (Probably not.)

*** Spoiler Alert***

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if you read one of the first drafts of just Jesse's story and thought I'd put the Elementals on the bardo bridge by mistake or something, well, I guess I can see why you wouldn't want to read more. I feel sad I appear so inept or uncreative or whatever. It's part of the plot.


Tuesday, November 2, 2021

REVEALED: THE NIGHT OF THE WATCHERS, SAMHAIN, AND HOW WE LIVE FOREVER AND ALSO DIE WITH OUR BODIES

The novella I keep posting about is a fictional story, however, I began writing a non-fiction piece to reveal several Mysteries (with permission, of course) including The Night of the Watchers, how both science and religion and magick are all "right" about death and the afterlife, and to provide a clear understanding of exactly what Samhain is- its origins, how to calculate, etc.

When I began writing this several characters from one of my fictional universes appeared, and their story allowed me to show not tell.  (There is some telling, but in the context of the story.)

I'd hoped to have the novella finished by Halloween.  It's not ready yet.  The standalone excerpt is still for sale, but the secrets listed above are not contained it.  However, purchasing it in advance guarantees delivery of the full novella when complete.  $3 on my Gumroad site.

cailliach.gumroad.com/l/ZOhoMH


Monday, October 4, 2021

MERCURY RETROGRADE, PIXIES, AND OTHER TRICKSTERS

Is it the Pixies, or the convening of all the heavyweights and malefics teaming up with Mercury retrograde and deciding everyone needed a little time out from social media? 





 

Linked In sent me a notification recently that there had been a large data breach.  It's just as likely this is human greed.  Serious data mining or even data hi-jacking.  

I'm taking it as a test run, to make sure I have alternate ways of contacting people during times like these.  Pluto/Hades goes direct on the 6th, and Saturn/Cronos on the 10th, but it's Mercury/Hermes and Jupiter/Zeus that are really hashing something out.  We have 2 weeks more of this. 

These days it is good to stay prepared and be self-sufficient.  Things are going to be a bit bumpy, even if you are prepared.  Also, can't hurt to put out some offerings!!!

Blessings peeps!

Sunday, September 19, 2021

DON'T LET OUR RIDICULOUS UNEQUAL AND VIOLENT SOCIETY MAKE YOU FEEL BAD ABOUT YOUR IMPERFECT SELF

 


Just a reminder: Especially if you are an activist, empath, person of faith, etc... I spend a lot of time saying these things to other people, but sometimes, especially during times of stress, I forget to say them to myself. I’m sharing this in case this is helpful to anyone else right now.

You matter. What you are doing is important. You deserve a good life.  You deserve meaningful work, enough leisure, safety nets for health and old age and childcare. (Life, liberty, etc.) And the activism and service you perform, this is something our society should require from everyone.  It requires a lot of strength to carry that without an official structure. Remember that.

Remember that human civilization is based on a few people getting as much free labour as possible via violence, creating demand for things that require labor, and then also profiting from selling those things back to the worker.

Any insecurity or fault that you have is going to be attacked so that you can be sold a way to feel better, and then be willing to work for less than your worth to create things to feel better to sell to other people. You are going to be taught to be afraid of death or threats of violence. Your reptilian brain is going to be trained to panic like you are about to die because you misplaced your keys, or lost your bus pass.

If you feel depressed, or angry, or overwhelmed because your day to day life is just a huge struggle, even in a country where our lifestyles are so easy that our public health issues are from overconsumption and lack of work, and our garbage is a bigger industry than anything we produce, remember why.

If you feel like you have a lot to offer but you are penalized for speaking your truth and made to feel bad about who you are when you are being honest, do not take that on yourself. Choosing not to speak is a decision you can make. But if there is a punishment for speaking the truth about something that falls outside of your actions or influence, then the problem is not you.

That is the other thing to remember- if you are an emotionally honest person you are going to suffer right now.  And if you have enough awareness that you know your own faults, you are going to find there are big piles of blame and pity being shovelled at you by the people who are too afraid to face their own truths.  Many people really think that by denying the truth they can change it. It is a really dangerous fantasy and you must avoid this group mind. (Never try to resist group mind.  It only gets stronger.)

We can't go back, and the only navigation system for the future is honesty. Factual honesty and emotional honesty.

(People are terrified of the changes and the complete break with the past. It's the science fiction future and it hasn't even been 100 years since the Old West... and the Old West wasn't really old when compared to China, Iraq, Turkey, etc. And the US, like all empires when they fall, are consumers. We produce almost nothing but war and DoD, and police to make sure the only extortionists on the trade routes and in the towns is our own.)

The truth has power.  Even when you cannot speak it, let it resonate within. Stay strong, peeps.


Tuesday, September 14, 2021

THE DANCE OF THE LORD AND LADY IS HAVING QUITE THE CLIMAX RIGHT NOW


The meme is way off IMO.  Men become more submissive in Libra, and are looking for love.

So Samhain happens during Scorpio, Ruled by Mars.  And Bealtaine occurs during Taurus, ruled by Venus.  And the Spring Equinox (in the Northern Hemisphere) happens during Aries (ruled by Mars) and Autumn during Libra (ruled by Venus). 

This is the dance of the Lord and The Lady.  And the Lady is in Scorpio, since September 10th, and secrets are about to revealed and I imagine a major ass kicking is about to take place regarding this Texas bullshit.

xxoo 


PS - if you appreciate me, please consider a $3 (or more) purchase from my Gumroad site.  Thank you!

Friday, August 13, 2021

SIRIUSLY, THE LION'S GATE PORTAL

The title is one of my stupid puns. I can't help myself lol.  

The star Sirius lines up with the pyramid at Giza around Lughnasadh every year.  In modern times there is a connection with the date being 8/8, too.

I'm going to let you investigate the Lion's Gate portal and Sirius on your own, if you need to, because I really just want to add something that doesn't require an in-depth understanding of the portal. 

There is another cycle overlapping this year.  It is a certain kind of visitors that can manifest so plainly here that they are often mistaken for extra-terrestrials of the tall whites/Stargate sort, and probably to some as the "anal-probe" greys.  These particular ones come on a regular schedule, and the last time they were here at Lughnasadh it was 15 years ago. 

The last time everyone had just received a massive upgrade in psychic skills.  The "muggles" or non-magickal folk, too. It was confusing because people like me knew they had increased, but so had everyone else, so in some ways, things remained the same.  These visitors often "test" mortal humans, or "try" them. 

I think one of the reasons the QAnons and conspiracy theorists are freaking out is that they are sensing the magickal world and entities like these visitors, but the Q/MAGAs are rooted in the lower astral.  Their experience of the shift is going to be completely different from ours. They don't see the separation between the worlds, so they think that things in other dimensions or from other spiritual levels are happening here, in physical reality.  And they don't understand the necessity to make decisions here based on the human shared reality. (And some truly delusional people can't distinguish between shared human reality and their personal subjective realities.)

"Human shared reality" is best described as a series of questions:  Can you do something magickal, like levitate, in front of other people?  Now you doing that is part of shared reality.  We know a person can do that.  Others can try.  Then, the shared reality either begins to include other levitators or it retains only you.  

The Q/MAGA types are always trying to make things true this way.  It's one of the reasons Covid denial will be popular, until Covid kills enough people and proves them wrong. *

(* Basically: Not enough people get seriously sick or die from contracting Covid yet, so they pretend it is not really a threat to them because they are "healthy" or the disease itself is a badly cast spell that their "truth" can overpower. This is wishful thinking magic- and if they got enough true believers they possibly could maybe "make it true"- but most of them are caught up in a delusion and not coming at it from a position of strength or honesty.  They don't really believe it.  For one thing, why isn't their body strong enough to fight off the vaccine?  Why isn't their mind strong enough to fight off the microchip?  Etc.)

There really isn't a big difference between a magickal person and a crazy person.  But the magickal person knows that there are other realities and dimensions, and is capable of living in more than one, and generally understands that the principle of shared reality means that most people will not see successful magick as anything other than lucky coincidence or a con job.

As I always say: "I'm only psychic when I am right."

Apparently a lot of magickal folk (including me) have been suffering ailments and accidents and so forth during this years' Lughnasadh season.  Mine is a sore throat and achy joints.  I'd been thinking it was allergies and just my normal response to the hot weather at this time of year (especially as I age- the heat affects my joints like the cold).  

Thinking about this sore throat from a psychic angle, I can see where my throat chakra is just blocked with things I cannot say.  I must release them- either by speaking or by releasing the need to speak. I must ascend my consciousness.

But I can also where all of this psychic energy (from the portal, the visitors, Lughnasadh, the ongoing big shift in human affairs) is overloading my endocrine system, AND I have been eating a lot of sugar lately- more than I have in over a year.  (Of course, eating sugar is also a sign of too much psychic- or other-energy in the body and having no outlet.)

Right now humans are being called upon to tend to this mortal world, so it makes sense that magickal and psychic energies are affecting our physical bodies.  Humans are destroying the habitat we need to survive.  The human species is being attacked by a deadly virus.  Income inequality is out of control.  We need drastic change.

The message that I am getting most clearly- from all the dimensions and all of the entities and all of the nature spirits- is that we need to stop.  It would be nice if we had a General Strike for wages and benefits and housing and the climate, etc. But if not Covid and the climate crisis will do it for us. 

So if you are achy or blocked or in bed right now, if everything feels awful and out of place, I think it is probably a blessing.  That's always hard for the Love and Light people to accept, especially.

Something I was really reminded of the other day was how much state of mind matters regarding what realms you can access and entities you can hear.  One of the dangers of "toxic positivity" is that often it is not rooted in reality- even personal, subjective reality.  It's a false veneer used to cover insecurity, feelings of unworthiness.

Which means that your real guides and guardians can't reach you, nor can interdimensional travellers and Stellar Beings.  Better honest sadness than false positivity.  Better to be honestly down than up and around and faking it. This will protect you from imposters and lower astral types ("demons").  

Instead of trying to get back up, examine how you got down and why.   

And listen, listen really carefully to everything you can hear, especially yourself. 

xxoo peeps


Tuesday, July 6, 2021

APPRECIATE THIS BEAUTIFUL PLANET EVEN WHILE HUMANS DESTROY IT

Jacobabad, Pakistan is 126 degrees Fahrenheit. 

https://www.telegraph.co.uk/global-health/climate-and-people/hotter-human-body-can-handle-pakistan-city-broils-worlds-highest/

Was responding to someone about being a witch or magickal person and watching the destruction of the planet simply because we cannot work together as a species.  For some people, driving around in a new car, eating junk food wrapped in landfill trash, and rushing home from a job they hate to watch a television show about people living the kind of life they desire, is the best possible life.  Or they can't even imagine another life and they are scared of their own selves, and their own inner life, to change or do anything differently. 

Ironically, these people cannot see that the end of that life is coming unless they at least slow down really significantly.  

This was my response about how emotional it is watching this planet get devoured:

My personal belief is that we are pretty much passed the tipping point. Humans can only live in a very narrow set of circumstances- 100 degree temperature range, specific needs for arable land and drinkable water. Our consumer societies and unequal wealth distribution have made living on this planet with 8 billion other people impossible. And in 1970 there were only 3 billion people on the planet. So way more people, and way more use of natural resources.

Between 2012 and 2016 I thought there was a chance that humans would ascend to a higher consciousness before the collapse would begin. Now I think it is almost too late. And improbable. My advice to myself and to everyone is that the future is magickal (and scientific, and I think one day science will explain magick). Do whatever you can for your place where you are, the best you can. Can you set up water reclamation? Solar panels? Garden? Do you have an emergency plan?

Try to reduce as much as possible. Buy fewer things and make less trash. Even recycling is using to much. Get involved in making your community greener, etc. Humans probably will survive in small numbers into 2100 or even 2200, but not before the entire planet turns into a trash heap.

Also I regularly talk to the animal and plant spirits, and simply ask for their forgiveness. The nature spirits are just heartbroken. A powerful thing to do right now, that witches do naturally, is to be grateful for seeing beautiful sunsets, drinking fresh clear water, seeing lightning bugs in summer, and the moon at night. Etc.

Big hug. I really feel you. It is hard to not get totally depressed.


Sunday, June 6, 2021

GREETINGS EARTHLINGS! MAYBE

Are people ready to know more about the various types of entities we call "aliens"? What we call "aliens" is just "others". These entities include most figures from most religions, plus many things’ science thinks of as inanimate, or having a lesser consciousness. Also, human senses are very dull.  There are entities and aliens and others inhabiting "space" all around us, but we can't perceive them... usually.

The point will come where so many anomalies will be found (like the first link, about the stone balls), and so many alternate realities and dimensions will emerge (like the second link, more on that later), that even the most dense and fearful mortal will be forced to confront it.

So, the "aliens" of various sorts are ready to reveal themselves or are being revealed as we find more and more clues.  Also, as our planet's ecology shifts it is going to be more difficult for these different entities to maintain invisibility.  Like as an infant grows and they become aware of people other than those within vision or touch, other than the caretakers and family.

And as more people shift towards higher consciousness, the more those with a need for absolutes become delusional- i.e., fight "group mind" which is shifting away from their core beliefs. Group mind is the shared reality accepted by most humans- which is often formed around a core of oppositional beliefs, like religion versus science. (EDIT: Group mind is often wrong, but most delusions come from rejection of group mind, NOT from subjective experience.  Real mental illness- schizophrenia, etc- are not rejection of group mind, but an inability to reconcile an inner reality that feels more real than the outer reality.  An outer reality which may or may not conform with group mind.)

Both the rise of supernatural evangelicalism as that centered around Trump, and the surge in witches, are collectively shifting the "group mind" towards magicks.  As more and more people experience scientifically unexplained phenomenon, science will be forced to explain it. 

All of this will shift "Group Mind", which is often completely wrong, or conversely completely right, or sometimes in between.  It is whatever the dominant belief is.

I feel confident I have already met a few of what would properly be called "aliens"- that is, creatures that have travelled here from another planet in another solar system and can appear as living humans from earth- like in the movie K-Pax.

I also feel confident that there are aliens from another dimension here, that had to escape a catastrophe and are stuck here.  They have some powers we do not, and we are just hopelessly infantile to them.  Also, we are destroying the planet and they do not have the means to escape, and they live a long time compared to us.  So, they are the ones that are going to be stuck on the steaming pile of garbage with the nuclear cockroaches.

And there are also Star Trek type aliens. Both Enterprise and "galactic", both tall whites and greyling- who are likely the same thing in different guises.  (And as far as I can tell, the real-life versions of the Klingons and the Ferengi have all the money and power.)

I am confident I could go looking and find more.  But do I want to? I have A LOT of experiences that other people do not share. I am already so far from group mind, and the ordinary person (even higher consciousness people), that absolute certain proof potentially could upend the narrative of my life if only I experience the aliens. *  And my solitary experiences- or anyone's- will not shift group mind alone.  It is better to let empirical human experience discover and reconcile these things one at a time.  

Huge Stone Spheres Discovered On Arctic Deserted Island -Tales from out there (weebly.com)

Mysterious Brain Syndrome Grips Canada (yahoo.com)

So, the Mysterious Brain Syndrome: I don't know any other people with my pastiche of abilities, and I don’t have a lot of data to back this up.  But, in my experience: the vision of television-like “static”, and loss of motor control, and the visions of the dead as “horrifying” are all par for course in the life of a Medium and psychic when she stumbles too close to the lower astral or lower the astral gets too close to the Medium.  

My initial thought when reading this article was that that geographic area is being affected by the magnetic shift and what is happening in the oceans overall.  (Too much to get into here- but the state and health of the oceans, and its flora and fauna, can tell you a lot about what is happening with "aliens".)

As more and more humans become aware of the "others" (aliens, spirits of the dead, angels, Anunnaki, etc.) the "shields" that keep "cloaked" these different entities and keep mortal human shared reality separate from realities that include aliens, will thin and fray in the weak spots.  Like Dalhoosie.

Because the "cloak" in that area is thinning and "muggle" (non magickal) humans are being affected, the lower astral is opening there as well- which brings those hideous visions of the dead.  And the disruption of the two levels overloads the mind, the endocrine, the chakras, and the spine.

Also, consciousness forms around matter. Human scientists would do well to look for that, instead of the other way around.  The thinking that consciousness emerges from matter, and only certain types. is very limiting. The sun is a HUGE consciousness, as are the planetary bodies.  They have a much greater consciousness than any human.  Humans are an extremely complicated and difficult to sustain organization of consciousness around matter.  It is true we are rare.  But we are not “alone.”  Just limited, isolated, and quite different.

(Look at an atom and you will see a few points of matter organized around a lot of space.  That space is consciousness, in a particular arrangement of awareness. And a solar system is an atom of a much larger consciousness.)

The caveat though, is that I am not sure awareness of this will help the people afflicted with the disorder right now.  Science would have to catch up fast.  Spiritual mediums, priests, etc., might be able to help somewhat.  But part of the problem is the overall toxicity of the planet.  We are all being poisoned by our own trash and over consumption, our unequal wealth distribution, our too industrialized and developed nations. Some places will survive longer, and some will hopefully make it through the shift and sustain small pockets of higher evolved souls in bodies. (As in the book 2150 A.D. by Thea Alexander.  And I believe St. Louis is one of those places, at least in the interim.) 

But it is probably going to get super messy first.  And horrible for people that can't reconcile science and all religions and atheism all being simultaneously correct and true, as well as sharing the planet with creatures from other dimensions and outer space. And a lot of people are not going to survive the destruction of the human habitat- the impending water shortage, grid shutdowns, etc.

The only thing that keeps me optimistic is that I know the root driving force of this world and the entire universe is Love.  Not that unreliable, spontaneous feeling you get for someone that makes you feel good, but True Love.  Macro Love.  A decision to strive for Higher Consciousness and stay connected to your own growth and the growth of others. And that can always be found in Truth. 

Now is a time to speak Truth.  About anything.  When you speak Truth, you will hear its' resonance.  Some people will try to avoid it, or deny it, but Truth has power.  It cannot be avoided or denied for long.

Sometimes we must wait for everyone else to discover it.  If you are one of the aliens or one of the folks here in advance of the New Age, one of the people here to build the New Age, take heart, and hang in there.

xxoo

 

*My narrative: I am writing another book, really need to do a walkabout in the Highlands and Hebrides- which requires some extra saving and planning, raise clouded sulphur and other butterflies for release, plus the shit ton of reading and magick I want to do as mortal human Rae.  And I'd like to make Supernatural Saint Louis as a real publication- not just a zine written entirely by me when I have the time- which I haven’t had for 5 years now. And of course, I will always remain politically active and involved. Aliens seem kind of overwhelming unless it is happening to a lot of other people, too.  

Tuesday, May 4, 2021

CRIKEY

Not the most cheerful of Bealtaine posts, but this is the main transmission right now.  I am enjoying the unbelievably beautiful Spring!! And certainly one of the longest, at least in the last ten years here in St. Louis! I hope you are, too. No matter what is happening, I hope you have many things you love and appreciate in your life, and that you are focusing on those things.  

But I'm gonna talk about the apocalypse (for most), the Great Awakening (for some), aka The Big Shift, because that is what is happening.

I've been watching Eureka, having just finished Warehouse 13 for the second time.  Can't believe I didn't watch either of these shows when they were on.  It is a delight and the storylines are all very advanced metaphysics that celebrate science.  Anyhow, the Max Headroom actor plays an Australian and he says "Crikey" all the time.  Crikey is a good description for the premonitions I am having about June and July.  Particularly in the USA.

I have two standard things I say about being psychic:  "You are only psychic when you are right."  Because if you are wrong you are just a crazy bitch who should be on meds.*  (How psychic processes work will eventually be explained by science, but they are really complex.  And it hard to be both the test subject and examiner.)

The other thing is "Being psychic is mostly about self-awareness, not outer awareness."  The combination of empathy to the point of being emotionally psychic, that is, an Empath, and being clairaudient is really overwhelming.  

And to be a person with PTSD and suffer frequent anxiety attacks, living through a time where the overall level of anxiety is so high, I can't tell if I am overcompensating or under. We are on a tipping point. The widening gyre. "The centre cannot hold."

Psychically and empirically, if one looks at the balance of the planet, the chlorine shortage should be viewed as an alarm.  A very loud alarm.  It's not just about pools, that is just where it is visible. The epidemic helped the planet in terms of vehicles on the road and perhaps energy use, but we also created A LOT of medical trash.  PPE, wipes, and all of plastic bags and delivery cartons.  We have more recycling than need for it. 

Something I "saw" and expected to be occurring last year at this time (and had just thought I'd either been wrong, or that the circumstances had shifted) is happening right now.  Something of a personal nature.  But specific enough to the time frame and circumstances, that I thought I would post again and encourage people to be ready for disruptions in services or goods. I am often "off by a year"- sometimes behind, usually ahead.  

Plus Mercury retrograde is coming up.  And this year's theme is "Crikey".  So keep the gas tank filled up, water rations, flashlights, candles, extra medications, etc.  Keep your disaster kit up to date as much as possible.  And if you have the money- get a solar charger for your phone or computer if it's just the electric going out.  Do you have the means to do the whole doomsday thing? Generator, ham radio, rainwater collection and or water purification, foraging knowledge, garden, etc.

Do you have your backup network in place locally?  Meet up places in case of emergencies?  Does your neighborhood or community have disaster and evacuation procedures in place? 

We should have learned from Katrina that we cannot count on the government.  In a disaster FEMA and the National Guard should do the looting and make sure that supplies are distributed fairly and that the stores are compensated.  Established places to meet up should already be stated.  Once or twice a year citizen should be reminded to review emergency and evacuation plans. 

Also, for me, I feel like the best thing I can do as someone trying to be part of the best possible timeline for this planet and mortal humans, which I find best encompassed in an outcome very much like the book 2150 A.D. by Thea Alexander, is to re-create my own life.  What has worked up until now may not work anymore.  This is tricky, because these are strange times, and require a lot of gratitude and focusing on the blessings, but also looking for what is holding one back.  Do your best, and forgive yourself and others as frequently as possible. 

(Forgive does not mean continuing to put up with abusive or dishonest behaviors, though.  And if, like me, you found the emergence of Trump supporters and Covid deniers among your New Age and Magickal friends kind of shocking, well, it seems like round two is coming.)

I feel like if we can make it until August we will be passed the current set of dire straits.  However, if enough people- of any sort, magickal or otherwise- don't change the course of developed nations especially, we will continue the downward spiral.  Regardless, my sense is that in August we will have many new opportunities opening up, even if they are just another curtain call on the Titanic.  (If it is a curtain call, then the doomsday prepping will be your lifeboat.)

One last thing, which may or may not be related.  Vertigo and tinnitus.  I have heard a number of people in witch chat groups on social media talking about strange tinnitus or vertigo, and in the last two weeks three people I know personally, none of whom are a witches, having developed vertigo.  

Ironically, the heightened tinnitus and vertigo I have been suffering for the last couple of years has lessened recently, but it occurred to me that is also a change, albeit a more welcome one.  Mine was worsened by my concussion 2 years ago, but I believe it had more to do with a vitamin D deficiency I had not been aware of, and which has now been corrected. (50k IU's of Vitamin D2 by prescription once a week for three months.  I feel so much better! )

Worth getting a blood panel done if you can.  Lower levels of vitamin D are also associated with more severe Covid cases.  Also get your thyroid checked. Remember, psychic energies run through the endocrine system- so that is also lymph nodes, kidneys, as well as all glandular and hormonal centers, which are major chakras. The tinnitus is, I think, possibly just the ears trying to make sense of all the sounds in the brain.  The brain expects the ears to hear the voices of the dead, and overcompensates.

Stay in the moment and stay in love!!! Blessings peeps! Thanks as always for reading!

MAY THE FOURTH BE WITH YOU! 




 (*you can also be too far outside of the person's rigid worldview and group mind associations) 

Wednesday, April 14, 2021

WE LIVE IN INTERESTING TIMES

From my Lady Rae fb page. 

This is my advice to myself lately.  Even for New Age and magickal folk, things are really crazy right now. 

If you are wondering if it is only you, or is Mercury in retrograde (multiplied!) every day, or is anyone else having that weird tinnitus or hearing that hum? No, it is not only you.

This is the tossing turning stormy ocean of the Big Shift.  Hang on and wear your life jacket.  And stick close to the folks that know you best. There isn't a lot of room in your boat right now. 

In Autumn of 2019 the Tower card, and Death, kept coming up in readings, for everyone, about everything.  I'd had a sense of dread for months at that point, but I began to realize that something was coming for everyone in March.  (I did not see what it was, but I did tell everyone to get stocked up.)

Now I am saying be ready for June and July but there is no way to be ready.  I don't know what it is, but we just have to get through it.  Maybe it will be good.  Maybe it will be the Lemurians or Pleiadeans or something here to reveal themselves and help us globally shift to a higher consciousnesses.  Maybe some crazed oligarch world leader fires a nuclear missile.  Not sure. 

In my last Rae of Light blog post I link to and talk about an interview with Sheldon Solomon where he expounds on his terror management theory that when confronted with a reminder of death, people double down on behaviors that boost their self-esteem.

The overweight person will eat more.  The smoker will smoke more, and take deeper drags.  Many people will shop and spend money. And he says, those that get self esteem from caring for the elderly and children will want to care more.

And, IMO, sociopaths with homicidal and violent tendencies will murder more.  Whether they are oligarchs that rule countries, or racist police officers, or ordinary men.  Death is no respecter of persons, and neither is the Fear of Death.

But anyone, even the most altruistic, operating on unacknowledged  fear of death, can be troublesome when you are being tossed around the stormy seas of change.  If you feel the need to help someone right now, make sure you know what they are asking for.  What they actually need. 

As a dominant person that grew up with adult level responsibilities, it is default for me to interfere and take over.  I have to remind myself constantly to ask "what is that you need me to do?" Instead of deciding for them or assuming.

If you read the interview, many of the people who reacted the most strongly to the death reminder insisted they were not scared of death or swayed by a reminder.  I know that when I get distanced from my feelings, and I cannot be honest with myself about how I feel (perhaps because it is too overwhelming or scary) I lose touch with what is real for me.

Emotional honesty is as important as factual honesty.  Emotions are  meant to be a guidance system that will sound increasingly louder the further you get from your true Self at its best and most authentic.  Depression is the very bottom.  To move up, one must go through anger.  But one must keep moving up.  Embracing anger because it feels more powerful than depression is natural, but it is not the final step.  (Google Abraham Hicks Emotional Guidance scale to see the progression.)

Right now is great time to let the uncertain future become the anchor that keeps me focused on the beauty of the moment, and to really make choices that will be meaningful whether "I live forever or die tomorrow".  It is a time to be really thankful for what you have.  Focus on what you love.  Forgive yourself and others. 

And most of all, stay steady on your own little boat.  You will not be able to help anyone if you drown.  Seriously. 

Hope others will find this helpful.

Monday, April 12, 2021

READ THIS BEFORE YOU THINK ABOUT DEATH

 Haha, right?  The title is a trap!  You already thought about death!  

My favorite magazine, The Sun, delivers the most thought provoking, timely interviews every month. (Also excellent, prose, poetry, fiction and photographs.)  And every month I have at least one major epiphany.  Usually a nexus of seemingly unrelated things swirling about in my head come together.*

The magazine has a monthly theme too, and this month it is Death.  The interview is with Sheldon Solomon, and his research and theories really fill in a gap on why fascism endures, and why we often respond inappropriately to life- altering change.

This Mortal Coil | Deborah Golden Alecson | Issue 544 | The Sun Magazine

You’re probably not even cognizant that death is on your mind. We know that death reminders have consequential effects on a panoply of everyday behaviors. Most people who are reminded that they’re going to die eat more chocolate-chip cookies, for example. People who consume alcohol are more likely to buy a drink after a death reminder. People who smoke cigarettes not only smoke more but inhale more vigorously.

If you tell people who find tanning attractive — and whose self-esteem is based on their physical appearance — that being out in the sun causes skin cancer, and then you ask, “How long are you going to stay out in the sun, and how much sunscreen are you going to use?” they say they will stay out a lot longer and use less sunscreen. What’s happening is that, when they’re reminded of death, they are unconsciously trying to boost their self-esteem, which is based on their appearance. Death reminders, in this case, foster behavior that may make you die sooner.

We get our values from our culture. If our culture emphasizes caring for children and old people, for example, then when we’re reminded of death, we should want to take care of children and old people more. But if we have a culture of narcissism, then when we’re reminded of our mortality, we turn into narcissists.

***

Our very first study was conducted with twenty-two municipal-court judges in Tucson, Arizona. We reminded half the judges that they were going to die and used the other half as a control group, who received no reminder. Then we had all the judges pretend to set bond for an alleged prostitute. In the control group the judges set an average bond of about fifty dollars, which was the norm in Tucson at the time. The judges who’d been reminded of their mortality, however, set an average bond of $450. This is a remarkable difference. After the study, when we told the judges what we had done, they all said there was no way the questionnaire could have altered their judgments in the case. Here were people trained to adjudicate the law in a rational and uniform fashion, yet just a subtle reminder of death was like putting a giant fist on the proverbial scales of justice.

***

I guess what has surprised us most is finding that death denial touches every aspect of our lives. For example, how come people can’t get along with others who don’t share their beliefs? Becker’s view is that accepting someone else’s beliefs undermines my confidence in my own. Therefore, he predicted, when we run into people with different beliefs, we will try to convince them to adopt ours, and if that doesn’t work, we will denigrate them or even kill them.

Sure enough, in our studies, we have found that when we remind Christians they’re going to die, they like Christians more and Jewish people less. When Germans are reminded that they’re going to die, they sit closer to people who look German and farther from people who look like immigrants. Iranians reminded that they’re going to die are more supportive of suicide bombers. Americans reminded they’re going to die are more supportive of using chemical, biological, and nuclear weapons against countries that do not in any way threaten us.

So the biggest surprise is really the consistency and robustness of the effects. They have been replicated in a variety of settings, in around twenty-five countries on five continents, and in children as young as ten and adults as old as their eighties.

***


So the best thing to do, Solomon advises, is embrace the fact that you are going to die, and that it could happen at any time.  All you have are the choices you make in this moment.  Decide what is important and focus on it.  

I agree.  But I am also glad to finally understand the whole Hitler/Trump thing.  (Read the rest of the interview for more.)

Blessings, peeps, I hope you are enjoying this beautiful Spring weather!!!  



* Like species 010 for 3.2 seconds as 7 of 9 observes it in ST:V episode "The Omega Directive".

Wednesday, March 17, 2021

ONE YEAR

CNN has an article praising DeSantis for his "laissez-faire" attitude about Covid 19.

Republican Gov. DeSantis is taking credit as Florida booms a year into pandemic - CNNPolitics   

Because Florida's economy is booming.  

Wow.  In no other context would the death rate and overflowing hospitals be okay.  

This is how the Roman empire collapsed.  In fact, how all empires collapse.  The fat cat, consumer citizens gorged themselves with imported foods, served to them by servants and slaves from the same colonies. They powdered their faces with a white lead they knew was poisonous, and that was also killing the occupied miners.  

What is really sad is that the obvious is not acknowledged: Florida was the top super spreader.  The shutdowns in other areas weren't effective because we didn't shut down ENOUGH.  

If we had done this properly it would have been over.  In a truly sane and logical world, we could have effectively killed coronavirus by stopping it in its tracks. 

This won't be over with the vaccine and the variants, and in world of 7.5 billion and serious income equality (requiring the constant sacrifice of human life for the accumulation of capital) this is not the last global pandemic.  

We haven't even begun to feel the shortages and effects from this last year.  As I have said many times before, if any infrastructure is seriously impacted for too long, it is industrialized, grid and global supply chain dependent countries like ours that will suffer.

Goodbye coliseum! Goodbye orgies and raping slaves! Goodbye lying on the couch stuffing yourself until you die from bowel impaction! Nero has begun playing his jig, but you can't hear it over the shouts of "it's just the flu" and "people have to get back to work"!

The next 15 years are the icky part for New Age folks.  Keep wearing your mask, even if you have superpowers.  Now is not the time to challenge group mind or tempt the fates.  To be part of the new world you have to survive the death of the old world.   

Stay safe and stocked up. 


Monday, February 15, 2021

LENT: THE SEASON OF SACRIFICE

15mar21 EDIT: I took that link to the Christian site with the info and picture of Nimrod and Semiramis and Tammuz out.  That was lazy of me, sorry.  That site was horrible and I should not have sent people there. Mea culpa!


Some people are surprised to find that I observe Lent.  I am a Pagan that embraces Abrahamic religions, but it is much more than that. One way I have of describing witchcraft is that we strive to live in conscious unity with the cycles of nature. We love, and communicate with, the forces that created and sustain this planet. We understand that our powers over nature come with responsibility. 

In Northern climates Lent falls during a time of year when food supplies would be low, especially fresh food, even when the weather was good.  During bad winters people and animals would starve during Lent, even as Spring was on the horizon.

And when other food ran out, seed stores are often drained.  In agriculturally dependent societies (more common in climates with cold winters) that meant fewer crops and stores for the next year.

So I believe in sacrificing something voluntarily.  And I've often been able to quit bad habits at Lent, by telling myself I only had to do it for 6 weeks.

In the last few years I've given up most of my bad habits, and with my (not serious) health issues and aging, many of my bad habits are no longer pleasurable.  The few I have are enjoyed in moderation, and would not be much of a sacrifice.

So I have decided to give up facebook.  I spend a lot of time on there.  Too much.  It's never bothered me before because I always knew I could live without it.  Now I feel panicked about a 6 week "facecation."

So now, for that reason, I have to do it.   

Maybe I will be posting more here, or maybe I will abstain from most social media.  I don't know.  I may still update my FB pages if I post on this or another blog. 

xxoo peeps


 



Friday, January 22, 2021

SO MUCH LOVE

 It's been three glorious mostly orange free days and the Bernie memes are a delight!

This is all the love people have for this man, who so many of us wanted as our President in 2016 and 2020. And finally, even though he isn't President, we can give him all of our love and attention for a minute.
Bernie is everywhere, with everyone- in every iconic image or next to every hero, in every joke. It's like a cleansing and purification of the Trump memes. A cancellation. The time of memes to make us laugh so we don't cry is over.
Time to laugh with great love and admiration for the "hardest working man in D.C" and someone who is truly authentic. Time to celebrate what we want. There is so much love for Bernie in these memes.
We the people have to stay involved and aware. We will be able to begin repairing the damage and then work to make real progress. Progressive progress. Not just orange disaster cleanup.
But for the moment, thank the Goddess for Bernie and his mittens!!!!!!
Blessings peeps!